This being the first post on my latest blog, I feel I need to be clear and explain to myself and anyone that stumbles across my blatherings, that I have been feeling stifled.
I have another blog… which I started using my real name and an ID I’ve had forever, thus if you see it, and you know me, well then.. you know me!
That’s the first problem.
Like an idiot, I invited all my friends to read my neat new blog and as such, I put in place my second problem. How the hell can you write about your daily life and the crap that bothers you if all your friends and family regularly wander by and read it?
Ok, that’s the second problem.
Within that friend-o-sphere there have recently come some people who I don’t necessarily like and some that have hurt the hell out of me, so where do I turn when I’m feeling angst, hate, hurt and down? Well, I usually journal, but because I’m so freaking lazy at this point that I don’t want to take the time to actually physically WRITE with a pen on paper, I’d rather type away as fast as my mind and fingers can tap on the keyboard and really let the feelings fly… but I can’t. Why not? See problem one and two.
That’s problem three.
That, hopefully, brings us to this solution. A new blog, a new post, and sorry people, but some anonymity as well. I’ll tell you straight up that I will not be using my name, my families names, my friends names and hopefully nothing else that will identify me, BUT- that doesn’t mean that what I write about isn’t the truth, or at least the truth as I know it, because I am an honest person who just doesn’t want people to know how much they get on my nerves at times.
And that’s really all that matters here, isn’t it? Not if you like what I write, not if I’m politically correct, not if what I write is fluffy and entertaining, not if I spare little Johnny’s feelings, not if I decide to write some kind of sexual commentary (thus the mature thing), but to have a true place where I can let it all hang out and just write whatever I feel like.
Someone asked me, “why make something so private, so public?” Hmmm, good question, damn them… I’m not sure why! I’m not anti-social and I’m not closed-minded. I suppose the point of it being somewhat public is to allow others to let me know if they feel the same way, think I’m full of shit, or just want to toss around a different viewpoint. That is, after all, how we live and grow.