Yes, my hackles are up today. It’s not really any PERSON in particular… it is more PEOPLE in general, and even more accurately, it’s circumstances and my responses to them that’s really going on here.
I got some good sleep last night, and had truly pleasant dreams this morning. I woke up refreshed and happy, yet somehow, between then and now, I’m ready to snap the heads of flowers and stomp around the house. Things like a slightly slow response from my keyboard has me all kinds of frustrated.
Someone told me that the best thing for me would have been for me to just go back to bed. Maybe she was right.
But, I thought, I’ll get this out of my system. I’ll write it down, and in doing so, I’ll see how truly insignificant my annoyances are and probably find something that I can consider beneficial to me by their being there.
Let’s see… although still a bit miffed at the late delivery of a piece of news that ultimately effects a larger group, I can see how this means I can now be more assured of how the group will function in the future.
While cleaning up the trash that the dog felt necessary to spread from one end of the bathroom to the other isn’t my favorite thing to do, at least the trash is now on its way out to the cans for pick up, and my rug will be clean when it gets out of the washer.
Even though the program I use for my work is making it impossible for me to get done what I need to, I can feel comfortable in the fact that I can use that time to set up my office and work on my internal file structures to make work ultimately better. This will make me happier once I stop TRYING to work and just roll with the flow of what I can do instead of what I can’t.
I can take a longer shower than normal since I can’t get any real work done before rehearsal.
I can sit in the sunshine for a bit and maybe read a chapter of the book I’ve been working on for about 6 months.
I can contemplate what I should make for dinner before we go off to rehearsals for the night.
I *could* take a quick walk.
Le sigh… I’m feeling a bit better now.